Well, my grandpa passed away on Thursday.

I found out right after getting home from school with a phone call from the nursing home where he had been living.

It really hit hard this time because 1) it was a bit sudden. I know that he's been really sick for a while now, but I thought he was headed in a good direction. and 2) I'm still mourning my friend who was killed in a car accident a few weeks ago. I was starting to accept it, but this just stirred it all up again. 

It's been really hard. It's like the 2nd double-whammy of death for me this year. Back in April, my great-grandma died, then 2 weeks later, I found out that my grandma also passed away. Now My friend dies, then my grandpa 2 weeks later.

I don't think I can cry anymore. Thursday night, after I found out, I basically spilled the beans to my mom about my friend and she was shocked. I have never cried so much in my life. This has just been an absolutely miserable year, and I know things can always get worse, but I'm pretty low right now.